February 24, 2014

Thesis Defence? Check!

"Analisis Semiotika Komunikasi Visual pada Isu Seksisme dalam Iklan Layanan Masyarakat United Nations Women"
"Sexism Issue on United Nations Women Public Service Announcement: A Semiotic Analysis of Visual Communication"

Today was my thesis defence. I thought I will be so frighten and anxious and nervous and other stuffs because I just got back from Jakarta (The2014AEO) on the night before the defence. Tired and lack of sleep caused my brain to start imagining ridiculously things, like what if I trip the cables? What if my high heels suddenly betrayed me? I never thought I would fail, no, because seriously I spent a total of a month full of writing, typing, printing, observing, analyzing, and consulting to both of my assessors, I deleted 'failure' from my thesis-dictionary. Yeah, beside being an expert on self-loathing, I could be pretty confident sometimes.

Now where were we? Yeah, the feelings. I am going to be blunt and super honest here, on my thesis-defence, I didn't feel terrified. Not even a slightest. I feel mad. Furious. Angry. Disgraced.

Unfortunately, for the sake of profesionality, it will be better if I didn't mention any kind of event caused me those feelings I described before.

Me (pouting),
snapped by my assessor and uploaded to her Path account because she said she's proud of me. *tears*

Moving on, at the end of the day, I feel relieved, happy, satisfied, and proud. Partly because whatever happened, I stood up for my educational thought. I stood up for the theory I believe in. I stood up for my assessors. I stood up for my parents' money, friends' support, and Taylor Swift's songs (yeah, I made up this one). I stood up and that was what satisfy me the most. I didn't run out of words. I didn't let a certain person broke down my 300s pages of analysis just because. I defend my thesis, because for the sake of all the scientific papers in the world, that is the purpose of thesis-defence. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is the most important thing in thesis-defence.

Well, beside passed it and graduate, though.

I would like to express my gratitude to everyone who took a part on this phase of life journey. I cannot stated them one by one (trust me, if I could then I would), so here's a huge virtual hug for everyone, like my parents, brother, friends, lecturers, a very friendly boys who works in a computer rental who helps me print out the very last page of my thesis because I ran out of ink at night, all the employees in all cafe/bistro/fast food joint for letting me typed for hours without kicking me out, etc.

I stood up for what I believe... and I am proud of it.

February 22, 2014

PLACE // Shopping & Ice Skating!

What is visiting Jakarta without a wee bit of shopping, aite? So I got myself two belts, masking tapes, sticky notes, tights, and restocking my NYX Soft Matte Lip Cream. I also bought two earrings and a wristlet from Forever 21 on a really great price (not pictured below). Then we went skating.... 

That was my second time on ice... learn to speed -- check!, learn to do a 180 degree turn -- check!, learn to do a 180 degree turn while speeding -- failed! My right palm and wrist kissed the ice hello. The bruises are epic.

It was so much fun to skate with friends. The more, the merrier! Hope we could have this kind of opportunity again some day.

February 21, 2014

PLACE // Kota Tua, Jakarta

Beside competing in The 2014 AEO on the last post, my friends and I also visit Kota Tua. This is my third time here and none of my friends have visited Kota Tua before, so I was basically the tour guide of the day.

me: It's 5.40 pm, let's go home before the rain starts to pour.
them: Okay, let's take TransJakarta!
me: .....it's almost 6 pm. You kidding me, aite?
them: No, I never take TransJakarta. Please please we will be together, it will be fun please please.
me: Suit yourself. Head's up, I'm used to traffic jam.

*an hour later*

them: Oh my God the traffic jam. I'm so tired standing up. Why aren't any seating available? Why the bus is so full? Man, I'm starving. Gosh it's tiring.

February 19, 2014

EVENT // The 2014 Asian English Olympics

Finally, here it is, the last debate competition before my graduation and after that... no more debating. 

The 2014 Asian English Olympics is an annual English competition held by Binus University on Jakarta, Indonesia from 18-22 February 2014. I always like how they handle this event. Last year, our team had a problem with the lodging and after a long and tiring discussion, we found the solution for both of us. Well at least they didn't just neglect us. I really appreciate that from a team work.

This year's committe also did a great job. So friendly and helpful. One long day I was so tired and absent-mindedly pumping some water into my bottle, then a committe came to me, took my bottle and filled it although I tried to decline it politely. Small things like that does matter to me.

The only downside of this event is the time management. Same issue as last year's.

Fun fact of the day, unlike last year, I didn't went shooting the rabbit in a wrong restroom. I am still thankful the only person who realized I went into male restroom is my then-partner. This year, I accidentally dropped the cap of the water pump. A committee took it and then wash it, so you guys don't have to worry about the hygiene.

What I got from the event; a tumbler, keychain, notebook, box of coasters, and stickers.
Most of it is a freebie, except the green file folder and pins.

Six coasters. SIX COASTERS.
I always nags about the ring of beverages and now I got six coasters as a souvenir.
Miracle does happen, my friend.

I accidentaly fell into this debating thing since a year ago. Did I love it? Nope, but I like it pretty well. It's saddening how I didn't get the chance to fell deeper in it. I have no real partner to practice with and debate competition is not really a thing in my town (a reason well-made to add to the list of why Ann should leave her comfort zone).

Another point of view of being a debater for me, I always feel in between whenever I am being faced by a motion. I believe that I am a critical person... when it comes to thing (in this case, idea) that I believe in. That's where it became confusing. In debate, you need to be critical towards any kind of idea given to you. I think about a lot of ideas outside my own belief, but being neutral is hard when you already placed your heart into the opposite. So here's a virtual salute to all debaters out there. Tough life, dude.

I feel disappointed of how I didn't get enough chance to leave my own mark in debating (except the 'worst' award I got last month --YAY!), but debating does left lots of mark in mine. Yes, I am talking about the scholarship and other opportunities. Man, I learnt a lot from debate.

Well, that's just my two cents. Now let's get into another activity, shall we?

P.s.: The day after my flight back to Palembang will be my 'thesis defence day'.

December 4, 2013

I Don't Know About You, But I'm Feelin' 22

"Yeah.. we're happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time. It's miserable and magical."

I'm 22 today. My mom and brother surprised me with the birthday cake. I also got some things from my birthday wishlist earlier.

Rosie Floral from UP shoes

Beside the cake and new wedges, I also got a bubble blower, a mini-kit of beach toys, The Fault in Our Stars book, and Sabrina black from Ciciero Bag. Oh and on top of that, look at my top, it's written 'Feeling 22' just like Taylor Swift's song. So thankful and happy!